Monday, 8 December 2008
heylo dears....
Seriously i don't know why nowdays i cannot stop blogging, i feel very disturbed if i cannot blog for a day or two and i kept sleeping late now, its very scary but the heck i care now because i have been thinking about this for a while....
For the past years, i have been blogging about stupid idioting stuffs which really is dumb and un-readible and talking about people and stuff and saw their weaknesses but then i realised that, i also have my own weaknesses that i never had noticed. been looking at other people's badness and not realising mine. thinking that i am the only one perfect and other people are un~perfect . Well now i am straitening up myself to all you people out there and show you, who i really am so here goes:
I could not be a good friend sometimes as i always thinking about myslef without thinking about my friend. Like when i chatted at MSN i always talked about my problems without thinking that hey! they also got problem laaaa dumb ass! so i decided to change so that i wont dissapoint them so i tried to change and try to be a new person but things must have gone wrong as i had a fight with a bestfriend of mine because of gossips): i know this is an old dumb story, why must you bring it up again? Hey this is my blog an di wanna express all this thingg and this blog is not suppose to be happy all the time? hey get a life, life is not always happy there could be sad times and here it is, one of the sad times. After all that gossiping are all gone i decided to to gossip about other people and try to change to a better person. Honestly saying, i have had bad luck in all of this. trying to make friends in secondary school because i am the only one at xishan and tellling you truthfully, for the past 1 month at secondary school, i have got a darn hard life, sitting alone at the canteen trying to make friends but people are just avoiding me as they had their own friend and no one to share laughter with. When i got into the internet and try to check on my old friends, all fo them seemmed very......... great and exciting by gettting new lovely friends and me, a big fat zero! A few months later got some friends and of course gossips start and i end up form friends to best friend to true friends. my life in secondary school have been very hard and the true friends that i have in secondary school is HUI SIAN JANICE AND XINMIN thanks girls(: even though i have been a lousy friend, you still stick trough me(: seriously i have become and outsider to (tell you honestly) Nasyirah, Syahirah, Quraisyah, Rasyidah and Habshah. Nasyirah, you and i have been great friends but then things started to change... To tell you people honestly, i already know that rasyidah had hatted me for a while after we became friends i could feel it. whenever quraisyah is around you had shown me that you seriously don't want me to be quraisyah's friend or habshah and syahorah for that matter. to tell you the truth i don't even care. i just want to get out of WGS and go to other school with my friends soooooo it dosent really mattersssssss(: to the boys who had been in my friends in secondary school, i really have nothing to say, sometimes you really wanna be friends and somwtimes its just hi and bye... i just can't tell(:
I just damn sad posting this post as i have to face these thigns for 4 years..... its just luck for me i guess(: i' ll just have to face it myself till then goodbye and goodnight(:
~fatini~
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