Thursday, 19 February 2009
OK, today i am feeling very damn weird sey. idk why but yesterday when i fell asleep i dream about this thinggg and really, thinking about this does not make me more comfortable than i am now.. so now i decided not to tell you guys. -_- i'm sorry...
Many things are just troubling me but i won't or want to tell people as i think that people nowdays are cannot be trusted. I want to tell someone but learn that to keep a secret is to keep it to yourself... Ouch! I am being protective of myself and i am beggining to feel lame.
i tried to tell somebody but ah!!!!!!!!!!!
A lot of people are beggining to hate me because yea, i am unreasonable and sometimes i expect too much from someone and yea i wanna say sorry to these people. I know sometimes i can be unreasonable and you won't forgive me but its ok. I have to expect the fact and i am not ashamed to admit my mistake and because i am not good in saying but i'm just good in writing about the feelings. This post is going to be long, i promise you. Maybe after i write this post, most people will hate me and its ok and i feel much better as i have already admit my mistake.
Habshah: I am sorry to hate you before. My heart is full of hatred and i don't know(idk) why. Maybe because i am not happy with myself and blamin other people about it. i am just an irritating brat. I know and i am sorry about it ):
Syahirah: "Syahirah sorry ehk?" Maybe somethings are not what it seems and what i say maybe hurt you and i did'nt feel it. I just cannot say in my mouth but in my heart, things are different so yea, i am sorry. :(
Rasyidah: Yup i know, you have told the secret that i once tell you about it and honestly, i am definately dissappointed but somehow, i decided to give one chance too many.There are things that i am keeping it to myself but now, its all let go. Previous year, yup! i am honest i hate you but now, things are changing and yea! i think i am beggining to be more matured. i'm sorry :(
Quraisyah: I know you are trying your best to like me and i really appreaciate it (: But maybe i am an ungratefull brate who did not appreaciate things that have been there for me. Now i will tell you from my heart that i am greatfull for it but maybe somethings are not meant to be... i'm sorry :(
Nasyirah: Wow! i am missing the time we 'pernah' spend together and yea, last year i think i am a stupid and the most ignorant twerp ever! iam so doubly irritating and i can't stop myself. Seriously shit me! I am most stupid person of earth. To all five of you. But i know that things cannot be change anymore and i hope that even though we are not close friends but a "hi & bye" friend. Its still good to get a smile(: and seriously, i'm sorry :(
* Like i say things cannot be change but until then... GOODBYE
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